TE AMO <3
Right.. I got ignored. Yeah, and I deserved it i know youre gonna say it.
News just reported that ____%(forgot) people died in their sleep during to heart cramps (sthg along the lines). I had heart cramps or liver cramps or lungs cramps(End year I fail bio nehxzs) while running at Bedok.R in the evening. I was doing the 2Km route, twice. At my last round last 100m, Damn, it came. I still finish the run, and squat'd on the floor grabbing my heart. Can you imgaine how shock was my dad?! Passer-bys were like asking me if I'm alright blahblah.
Damn, you know that moment I wished my family (all) & Ky & LeeAnn was beside me. I was so ready to say my dying speech. The pain was killing I tell you, knn. I cried and kept clutching my heart like some-pervert-dying-to-rape-a-girl. And I can't breathe after that. I was gasping for air like someone-who-can't-swim-and-is-underwater kind. MotherF, I thought I was going to die.
{Note : Sorry for vulgarities but y'know.. }
After gasping for air for 1975421329282 years, I died.
This is the ghost of Steffi MUAHAHAHA.
Lax people, lax! Its a joke alright? I'm still here, kicking alive, ready to kick Joseph's balls (ex-sc) as I remembered how disgusting he was to 'console' me and touch my shoulders.
Right... & obviously the cramps stop and my breathing slowly went back to normal. Daddy was like shouting at me to go hospital and I was crying NOT to go there.
Obviously, I won.
And the run was at a comfortable pace for me y'know. Total = 4Km. Timing = 26mins. Hey trackers, THAT IS DAMN SLOW I KNOW! Seriously, it is. I wasn't panting except for running up the2 4 killer slopes.
Fuck, what the hell is wrong with me.
So now, before I go to sleep, I shall say my last words (in case something happens) .
Eh, I think thats all.
Alright I admit I wished to die in my sleep and never want to wake. That was when I was sick & Ky wasn't there Lee Ann's far away & terrible emotionally and physically.
Maybe, tonight is the night. Warnings / signs have been given.
Should I say my last words to Lee Ann & Ky? Hmmm..
And I didn't tell Lee Ann or Ky.. They won't seems to be interested I THINK. I got ignored why should they bother? :'[
Right.. Time for death. Happy?
OKAY THIS IS SERIOUS! BloodyF, what if today is really my last day on earth? Should I sleep? Or ton? Damn..
Alright, fate decided for me yesterday night or rather, today's morning (Lee Ann, Joash & Ais) .
Death God, you decide alright? (Result in watching Death Note) LOL.
I wanna die pretty.
& this will be the last photo you have of me :
The Steffi which just had one of her most happiest moment in her life.
Fyi, TE AMO means I love you in Spanish.
& I really do love you Ky.
Goodnights readers. Have a lovely sleep :]
News just reported that ____%(forgot) people died in their sleep during to heart cramps (sthg along the lines). I had heart cramps or liver cramps or lungs cramps(End year I fail bio nehxzs) while running at Bedok.R in the evening. I was doing the 2Km route, twice. At my last round last 100m, Damn, it came. I still finish the run, and squat'd on the floor grabbing my heart. Can you imgaine how shock was my dad?! Passer-bys were like asking me if I'm alright blahblah.
Damn, you know that moment I wished my family (all) & Ky & LeeAnn was beside me. I was so ready to say my dying speech. The pain was killing I tell you, knn. I cried and kept clutching my heart like some-pervert-dying-to-rape-a-girl. And I can't breathe after that. I was gasping for air like someone-who-can't-swim-and-is-underwater kind. MotherF, I thought I was going to die.
{Note : Sorry for vulgarities but y'know.. }
After gasping for air for 1975421329282 years, I died.
This is the ghost of Steffi MUAHAHAHA.
Lax people, lax! Its a joke alright? I'm still here, kicking alive, ready to kick Joseph's balls (ex-sc) as I remembered how disgusting he was to 'console' me and touch my shoulders.
Right... & obviously the cramps stop and my breathing slowly went back to normal. Daddy was like shouting at me to go hospital and I was crying NOT to go there.
Obviously, I won.
And the run was at a comfortable pace for me y'know. Total = 4Km. Timing = 26mins. Hey trackers, THAT IS DAMN SLOW I KNOW! Seriously, it is. I wasn't panting except for running up the
Fuck, what the hell is wrong with me.
So now, before I go to sleep, I shall say my last words (in case something happens) .
Steffi's last wish / speech.
- Please tell Ng Kang Yu that I will always love him & sorry for the
things I've done.- Please pass the letter enclosed to Ng Kang Yu in my red&white Nike
bag.- Please tell Lee Ann, I'm sorry & I love her too.
- Please tell my whole family including Ah ma & Carin I love them and
sorry for being rude at times. They're the best family members ever.
Eh, I think thats all.
Alright I admit I wished to die in my sleep and never want to wake. That was when I was sick & Ky wasn't there Lee Ann's far away & terrible emotionally and physically.
Maybe, tonight is the night. Warnings / signs have been given.
Should I say my last words to Lee Ann & Ky? Hmmm..
And I didn't tell Lee Ann or Ky.. They won't seems to be interested I THINK. I got ignored why should they bother? :'[
Right.. Time for death. Happy?
OKAY THIS IS SERIOUS! BloodyF, what if today is really my last day on earth? Should I sleep? Or ton? Damn..
Alright, fate decided for me yesterday night or rather, today's morning (Lee Ann, Joash & Ais) .
Death God, you decide alright? (Result in watching Death Note) LOL.
I wanna die pretty.
& this will be the last photo you have of me :
The Steffi which just had one of her most happiest moment in her life.
Fyi, TE AMO means I love you in Spanish.
& I really do love you Ky.
Goodnights readers. Have a lovely sleep :]
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